3rd April 2020 -10th DAY OF COMPLETE LOCK-DOWN OF INDIA

21^TH DAY OF MY SOCIAL ISOLATION

2567 POSITIVE, 72 DEAD, 192 RECOVERED

General feeling: “When denial and fear, gives way to acceptance, one feels braver. And that helps you to tell yourself that, I’ll let life be. What happens, happens. Life will go on. And then you just leave everything to time, while trying to do your best. You also understand your limits. And that brings in a great deal of inner peace”

It was extremely busy for a Friday. A lot of work, too many calls and quite a bit of house-work. Today, it was my turn to clean the kitchen and sweep the entire house. I wanted to evade it but once I was at it, I guess I did it diligently. All this has left me quite tired.

I showered after a long hectic day only to sit in my balcony, listening to some old age Hindi music. As the breeze calmed my body and mind, it struck me that some very simple things, which do not cost anything, bring some true happiness. Things as simple & ubiquitous as clean breeze, sun-light, birds – just the sight of nature can make a human feel better. This I feel is a beautiful insight. Into our minds. Into our hearts.

Why is it then, that we run behind pursuits that only wear us down and make us busier? This is a question we can ask ourselves. We may all have different answers. And those answers would lead us on different paths.

The answer we get depends on how deep within can we look. It’s important, however to look outside of ourselves as well. So that we do not become self-obsessed and self-centered. A lot of people are self-centered. Like me, for example.

I’ve been wondering, that in this COVID situation, who would be that one person I’d rather save. The answer was myself. I feel morally upset that I didn’t choose my mother or my father. Or just anyone else. This answer really surprised me. I hadn’t considered myself a very self-centered or selfish person earlier. And hence, once again, an insight into our minds as a species. Maybe, no?

So we’re basically selfish and we like simple natural things. Kind of doesn’t go together.

I am not sure what to make of it. Just too many stranded thoughts, woven into one blog post.

I am really tired today. 

Night sky as I see it from the balcony

Until tomorrow, rest well!